Coward.

Dear Fellow Bloggers:

I am officially a Coward.

 Its so easy to say it when he isn't around. Hell, it's even easy to say it out in to cyber space
where millions of billions of trillions of strangers are.
But the moment I have to say it to his face I just can't
The words fall back in to me,

I don't know what it is, something about those overly expressive eyes.
I just freeze and cry within.
To be honest I hadn't realized how I felt.
I had been refusing to acknowledge the effect he had on me.
But then all of a sudden I realized he isn't mine.
I may lose him in the blink of an eye.
And the thought of it makes me ill.

My cheeks blush and I try conjuring up the valor I need to ask him to stay.
To beg to be his.
But I sit motionless,
masking terror with a smile.
I see him walk by happily oblivious.
I want to speak up and at least say I tried.

But I can't.

I pretend to act all righteous.
I say I remain silent for his well being,
that I don't speak in order to protect others.
But lets be honest, I don't speak out of mere cowardliness.

I mean seriously,
how hard is it to say three little words...

I Like You.
  I Want You.
      I Love You.

See!
EASY!

But in front of overly expressive jungle eyes?

I.... CAN'T

Cursed me to be trapped in this coward soul.