Coward

I admit it i am a coward! 
I use reason as a shield.
I blame my heart, its grown tired
Its lost its moxie.
I am a coward,
I have learned to survive
Yet I have no idea of how to live.
I yearn for the future,
And long for the past.
To terrified to live today.
I am a coward, 
Admitting it is the first step.